There are big changes afoot for the Lauth/Huggins family.
(Did I tell you I went back to my maiden name? No big deal. I still own the domain carrielauth and that’s how I’m known all over the internet, so I’m not about to mess with that. But my friends know me as Carrie Huggins.)
The last two weeks have been some of the most difficult emotionally in recent memory. I’ve had to make some big changes, and it’s a bit scary. I’m having a really hard time keeping a lid on my emotions.
Drama Queen I ain’t.
Maybe you’ve noticed I’ve been a bit quiet here. (And I’m not about to engage in the cardinal blogging sin of metablogging right now!)
It’s been really hard to write. Impossibly hard, even.
I can’t really share some of the things that are on my mind, because of personal reasons. And legal reasons. And safety reasons. lol!
But I’ll tell you some of it.
For one, we’re moving in a few weeks. My lease is up in May and I wanted to move. (This is part of why I want to move. My neighbors are skanky, trashy people who scream at each other at 4 AM and blow smoke upstairs into my bedroom and get drunk at wildly inappropriate hours.)
I found another place in my same neighborhood, which I didn’t want to leave because I love it. I love my new place and put a deposit on it last week. I’m thrilled. It’s perfect in every way! I really like the guy who is my landlord too, he’s a gem, I can tell already.
Another thing is, I’m putting the kids in school. This is such a huge thing for me, and I am torn up about it. But it has to be done, at least temporarily. Homeschooling is so important to me and I’ve put it off as long as I could, but I can’t do it any longer. I have to be able to work more so I can provide for my family with less stress. There are only about 6 weeks until summer break, so it will be a good test for us. If they hate it and are miserable, I won’t make them go back in the Fall. But, there is always the chance that they’ll really enjoy it. I loved school as a kid.
There are some other things too, like I said. It’s been a roller coaster. Hopefully I’ll be back to normal soon and posting here daily again.
I’ve missed you all.
Carrie I hope these hard times go away for you quickly. I know it must be hard to send your kids to school after homeschooling. Keep us posted on how it all goes.
Carrie, I’m so sorry to hear your are going through a rough time. I know you are a very dedicated and intentional mom. I pray you receive wisdom and affirmation as you make such difficult decisions.
{{{{hugs}}}}}
Hope these hard times can strengthen you–it’s one of the great paradoxes of life. Being beaten down can raise us up. We look forward to any insight that you can share from going through your trials!
Carrie, you and your family are in my prayers.
Oh Carrie, I wondered why the silence, I will be praying. Divorce is very similar to the emotional pain of a death, except you also have the rejection, plus the loss, and the starting over. Because divorce is common in our society, people tend to discount the difficulties it brings instead of giving emotional support to the single mom.
hugs
Carrie,
I’m sorry to hear that you’re stuck on this emotional rollercoaster ride. I hope everything works out for the best. You’re one strong mama who I’m sure is doing the best she can given the current situation. Hang in there!
Thinking of you with all my heart. I can’t begin to imagine how difficult the gut wrenching decisions have been for you. Take care of yourself . Christine
(((hugs)))
Thinkin’ about you. You’ll make it through. I’m sure your children have benefitted greatly from the homeschooling they’ve had. You can send them to school better prepared.
Carrie~
On all fronts…
My heart and prayers go out to you. I too had to stop homeschooling and put my kids in public school-twice.
It is just so hard, I know. And I had four as well-and that entails.
Hang in there. Things will get better!
I pray you had a good evening this evening.
Sharie
Carrie,
I am so sorry to hear you have been going through such a bad patch. If there is anything I can do for you, just let me know.
Hey Carrie,
What you need is time and parties! Party at my house. Don’t forget the after party, little sister!!
Also. If you need to put the kids in school, it won’t be one of the worst things they will go through in life. In fact, it may enrich their appreciation for you and all you have done for them in the past. And you know what, 10 years from now…(and it will be here before you know it….!!!) it won’t make any difference. You have given them a fine foundation that will be a part of them for all their lives, now and into eternity. Carrie, keep your face toward the sun, and you won’t see the shadows.
I love you and can’t wait to see you in costume…. come as Bettie Page dressed as Snow White!
Found it. lol
I’m sorry you’re going through hard times, but I know you can do it. You’re such a strong person. I’m in awe of you, and totally respect you.
As far as putting your kids into school, you know what your kids can handle and what they can’t. If you’re even considering this, then I’m sure they will be just fine.
And if they aren’t. If they just can’t handle it, then I’m sure you figure something else out.
You need to be able to put food on the table, pay the bills, and provide a good safe and happy home for them. Since your SOB ex doesn’t seem to be willing to help you much (or at all) with such things, then it’s all on you and your shoulders.
I’m sure you’ll use your new found free time wisely, and make the most of it.
Nell